Wednesday, March 27, 2024

This morning from the car park as I walked through it..

These words below, my "insight of the day' that lands in my inbox daily, made me stop and think..

Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it.

Brene Brown - Professor-Lecturer-Author

Is this why I keep on the move, I'm running away from my own truth.. 

This week is becoming unbearable, as always this week does.. it is truly as though Franco dies every year still, for me.. 

Would people say I'm running away from this by not wanting to be here any more?

Maybe?

I don't know any more.

And this week has Semana Santa.. parking and noise, think I'll raise a tent on the beach and sleep there the rest of the week! 

M.


Monday, March 25, 2024


I have to wrap up everything in the dresser, and I was going to begin today, but I'm not sure I have the umph to get going.. 

I picked up a small pot with coins, I'm going to sort out coins now, instead.. 

I did it though yesterday, in the end...

And today, scratch that, right now this evening .. and I was trying to unscrew this sofa bed.. I did manage to make a dent in the soft cardboard base! 


And on the plus side I know I can fit in this tiny space!! 


But that top lefthand screw was wrecked! I guess when the guys put it together.. so not sure at this moment what to do.. actually if it's just holding the side panel on, it's okay!

I took some more stuff to a charity store today, and just now emptying this I have another small pile already..

We had much rain today! Yesterday it started with a random heavy shower, sounded like hail stones, followed by a few hours of rain over night ...

And today on and off showers all day.. 

I had the doctor's this morning as an update on my raised meds, she sent me for an immediate ECG in the urgencia section, and said it's okay, so thats good enough! 

M.


There are many paths but only one journey.

Naomi Judd - 1946-2022 - Singer-Actress



Saturday, March 23, 2024


I can never un know or un remember things.. 

Remembering going into the hospital yesterday for the last ten days of Franco's life

We went in expecting one thing and it became another

Although things in life are, and can be expected always, even those become unexpected when it comes down to it..

I wonder if when we die, we awaken somewhere and get a huge shock or happy surprize.. 

I do believe there is something waiting, I can't believe we go through all this for nada..

And well, lets be honest if nothing is the answer then we won't know it!

The photograph above are my marbles! I found them all! Just joking, they're still lost, this was in the restaurant last Sunday? Was it only last Sunday?  En Restaurante El Comercio!


This photograph, San Pedro, along the boulevard.. also below

The stress we put ourselves in.. This morning a fine example of probably the reason for my Chronic Gastritis.. 

The kitchen tap become undone from its moorings under the sink! 

And me off to work... Flipping heck! I wanted to grab my passport and run for the hills! 

But more to the point couldn't eat my porridge, I just felt sick and what I was eating hurt my stomach.. which is doesn't normally..


I am guessing all the stress of the last seven years has reached it's limit in my body, so Gastritis has occurred, never to go away, a grim reminder, we are killing ourselves with our thoughts, our stresses and worries...

A slow suicide 

The rather obscure photograph above is the remains of my second skin when it was peeled off Tuesday! 

M.



I have learned that if you must leave a place that you have lived in and loved and where all your yesteryears are buried deep, leave it any way except a slow way, leave it the fastest way you can. Never turn back and never believe that an hour you remember is a better hour because it is dead. Passed years seem safe ones, vanquished ones, while the future lives in a cloud, formidable from a distance. The cloud clears as you enter it. I have learned this, but like everyone, I learned it late. ~Beryl Markham 


Wednesday, March 20, 2024


The jar that held the sand from 1989.. for 155pts.. I recycled the jar, it has become heavier over the years... No more sand.. just heavier in memories..

I'm glad he sand and shell held within have gained their freedom after thirty-five years.. 


Just an abstract view of a flower trailing above my head walking back up from the boardwalk at Playa Luna Mar.. that was the name I'm sure Originally? It's not now, everything changes eh!

I took this when we were having lunch last week, I was focusing on the plants on the terrace on the apartment there..


Just from the car park here... My car was beautifully covered in blossom the other day..

Just a short photograph Blog post really right now..

Had a day of stomachache, had other plans but instead, a sofa day, and movies .. even the old Penelope Cruz movie Jamón Jamón.. it's not the best ever movie by any standards, but it's funny and crazy! 

I first watched it back in about '98, it's a '92 movie.. but looks older... 

Vale, mañana amigos...

M.


Friday, March 15, 2024


Monday, on the terrace, catching some rays..


Had the need for wine.. Not probably, a good thing, but unusual that I had such need so I guess in it's rarity it's okay... 

Having a few days longer off this week as I catch up with time owed.. So back from town the terrace, music, y una vaso de vino tinto... o dos! 

Worked Tuesday and now off! Free like a bird on the wire..

Woke way too early this morning, doesn't matter though does it, not really, so the movie that's got me thinking this morning is Hypnotic, with Ben Affleck.. 

Do we see what's real... Do we see what others see?

How much is illusion and what it real? Really?

Catch up! Wednesday, coffee at my bar, tattoo, home!

Thursday, town lots of friends, home..

Today, Friday, quick trip back to tattooist, down to the coast, met with friends, lunch out.. 

Nice, feeling sometimes like a tourist, or a passing visitor...

Ate somewhere I've seen forever and never been to..

Before lunch I walked down to the boardwalk, and on the beach where I scattered Franco I scattered something else..


My collection of stones and pebbles and shells from all over the place! Here, of course, but Italy the US, Crete... 

A collection spanning forty years..


I can't keep carrying them around with me... 
There are, were, too many.. So they'd been in a bag in the car, along with sand from Marbs I collected in a jar of eaten olives, purchased in 1989 for 155 pesetas! 

That too, travelling here, and to Wales, and back again! 

Now, deposited like a fugitive losing earth from my pockets, from a hole in the bag, along the coastline..

No sand at the moment down there...only rocks, and along I walked... 

I don't know if I want them lost there, becoming sand over the centuries or to be picked up by another and taken home for another thirty or forty years..


After lunch next port of call was La Cala for coffee with a friend..

Now back home in Alhaurín, well nearly, finishing my day with a small caña..

Then home!

M.


Sunday, March 10, 2024

Happy Mom's day in the UK!

This Is Me Now, Jennifer López, just watched this movie, I have to admit I nearly stopped at the beginning, just an unexpected start..

But soon I got it, and then was completely taken with it .. and it resonated with me and was very emotive.. 

I pretty much cried on and off throughout! 

Maybe touching too many sore points I carry..

A very good movie... Glad I watched it.. 

After a couple of rainy days, although today is cloudy with a chance of sunshine, there a breeze and probably colder in the house than outside, but not having actually exited the house I have no true idea! 

We all have those moments where a word escapes our minds, or will do, believe me!

But yesterday at work I think I reached an all time high, or low??  Corn flour is fairly obvious, it's corn flour! I seemed to completely forget and asked what it was made from!! What the heck!!

M.


Friday, March 08, 2024


Yesterday drove a friend down to Torremolinos, he loves the full English breakfast down at The Tudor Rose... Unfortunately, they are closed on Thursdays! 

So we had some breakfast, local style, and a coffee at this bar on the roundabout with Picasso's dancing ladies... 


Just now uploading it here, I had to check, but the post of the bar and the tree are lined up so well, they look as one! I couldn't work out how the roundabout barrier was in the way!! Lols!!

We had a good walk along the paseo on the beach side then crossed back over and had another coffee before returning home to Alhaurín..

And then later in the day the heavens opened and down came our much needed rain! 

And continued to come down, for most of the rest of the day..

Later in the afternoon I was back in town, having coffee inside! And watched as the rain and the sun vied for position.. 

This morning there was a few drops, but only now has the rain returned, and supposed to be raining all day tomorrow, so a boat might be needed for work in the morning! 

The other day after I'd Blogged, sat, still outside Bar Monikas, a dog that passes by sometimes when I'm there, came up close, I petted him...

He cocked his leg towards my seat... And peed! Hilarious! 

M.